This is another fear of change song. Not even motivating break-ups will make some of us change our toxic behaviors. Change is difficult.
lyrics
I'm messing up my life just by sitting around,
I get nothing done, I feel like I'm nowhere bound,
I want to be alone, yeah and I want to be free,
And yet I want you to fall back in love with me,
I messing up my life just by sitting right here,
Playing my guitar and drinking yet another beer,
And my six pack is gone and so is your suitcase,
And I'll never again see your beautiful face,
I'm messing up my body the more that I drink,
I'm messing up my mind the more that I think,
I'm messing up my life now and I don't even care,
Because you're not here, no you're not anywhere,
I know I'm spiraling down,
Sometimes I wish I'd sink so low that I'll never be found,
Down someplace where everything stays the same,
I'm afraid of my own life and I have no one else to blame,
Because I know I'm messing up my life by ignoring my dreams,
I'm closing up me eyes, blind to the way it seems,
That I can't do a thing alone now, no I won't even try,
And I can't even think of a single reason why (Oh, god)
You could have been my wife, but i know why you didn't stay,
There's a lesson to be learned here, but I'm throwing it away,
I'll keep messing up my life, though you might find it strange,
And I'll keep writing these songs and pretend that they'll help me change.
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